Lately, I’ve had this pervasive feeling of sameness. My body-mind system is seeking a change of state; it wants different food, different environments, different activities, different clothes, different… SOMETHING.
This time of year, for the activities I perform each day, I basically have a “uniform.” It is functional, practical, and comfortable, and it allows me to go about my day with ease. Sure, there are lots of colors and patterns to choose from, but it’s all variations of the same thing. My mind is saying, “This is boring!” So, I humored my sweet mind and stepped into my closet post shower to find what I call “people clothes.” 😂 As I was perusing my options, my mind had a lot to say…
🧠: “Man, I’m so sick of all these clothes. Nothing fits right. All of these stupid tops and sweaters are too big. Nothing is warm enough. We should just scrap everything in this closet and start from scratch, honestly.”
Now, for those of you thinking, “She’s complaining about her clothes being too BIG?! What I wouldn’t GIVE to have my clothes be too big!” I hear you. I do. But please notice that the type of chatter is EXACTLY the same! Please notice that this has absolutely nothing to do with clothing sizes! The details are entirely irrelevant. When a mind has labeled passing thought and feeling as “discomfort,” it gets revved up. And when it’s busy and revved up, it will say ANYTHING to get you to not feel the feeling. Remember, the mind CANnot understand that discomfort is a SAFE, UNAVOIDABLE part of living life as a human being. It just sees that as a threat to your survival, and it starts making suggestions and demands.
As I still appear to be human, I got caught up in this for a while. I rooted around in my closet until I found something “acceptable” and put it on my body. I’ve been doing other external things (buying different foods, making plans with friends, etc) in response to this feeling of a need to change my state. However, I am doing all of this with the deeper understanding that this is all just Life moving. I am doing all of this with the understanding that psychological states change all by themselves, without the need for intervention. But, I’m human, and humans do stuff! So, I’m doing stuff. Different stuff. And I’m OPEN to inviting ALL thoughts and feelings to the party, even the ones I don’t like.